I spent a healthy portion of Saturday evening being angry and resentful. Angry and resentful about how much time I have to spend on Zoë and how little time I have to myself. Angry and resentful about our financial situation. Angry and resentful about the fact that Scott is angry and resentful about our finances and his commute and the fact that we are still renting. I try so hard to focus on the positive. Not positive thinking "everything is okay!" but saying "Do we have problems? yes. Are there good things in our life? Yes, they are: ...."
However, Friday I just couldn't take it anymore. I ended up calling Kathye and we bitched at each other for a while. She and I both agree that our husband's commutes are hard. But, we are so envious of those 3 hours a day that they get all alone. Nothing else to do or think about but driving and listening to the radio. Do you think about what's going on in life? Sure but there is nothing to do at that moment. It's hard to explain.
So, today Scott held the baby while she slept and I colored my hair. I hope I feel better.
posted by Amanda Snyder at 4:09 PM

Channel 2 made me mad yesterday. I was watching something (millionaire? anyway..) and they one of those previews for the evening news came on. It said "Dreaming of perfect legs?" and showed a clip of a Victoria's Secret runway show. Now, the model was only shown from the waist down. So, not only do they consider a woman who is 5'11" tall and weighs 112 pounds to have perfect legs, but that is apparently all she has worth showing on TV. I was wondering if they had to pay her directly for showing her face. God forbid. Then they went on to talk about some procedure you can have done on your lunch hour. This statement was accompanied by a clip of a woman in the vicinity of a size eight with her legs marked up with a black marker. I can only assume that these are her "problem areas" or at least those that are less than perfect. Then they show a doctor's hands (I assume it was a doctor, although I shouldn't, just because the person in question was wearing a white coat.) wielding a really, really big syringe. More pictures of skinny women's legs followed except these were wrapped in black stockings. I just sat there. I don't know if it was the mood I was in or what but I was so so so offended. Why on earth would I tune into the news at eleven o'clock at night to find out how I can get poked with a big needle? And how is getting poked with a big needle going to make me look like a girl in the Victoria's Secret runway show? Why do you equate "perfect" with thin? What if I think my legs are pretty damn attractive as they are you jerks? I'm going to climb down from my soapbox now.
posted by Amanda Snyder at 8:29 PM

It's been a long time since I blogged. And since it's been so long I was trying to figure out how to catch up. How can I describe what been going on in the last almost month? Well, I'll give it a shot:

-Zoë still says "bye" and has added "Pow!" to her list of words.

-I was on the committee for the Fall Party for Mom's Club. It went fine but our chairmom was apologising to our club president for going overboard and spending so
much money. I thought it was fine. Over activitied, but fine.

-I carved Jack o' Lanterns on Halloween. Then we didn't get any trick or treaters so I blew out the candles and put the pumpkins around the side of the house. Then I
forgot I put them there and that was 12 days ago. I haven't gotten any closer that 15 feet or so, I can see that they are green though and look remarkably caved in.
Ewwwwww......

-We're going to Seattle for Thanksgiving with my parents. We'll be able to see the Garcia's while we're there and we're very excited about that.

-Christmas. Siiiiggghhhhhh......

-My parents have decided that they've done their time in the small house and are ready for their big house to be ready. It won't be done until January. If they are
both still alive after this I'll consider myself lucky.

-I've been crock pot cooking. Who'da thunk it?

-Zoë slept in her little crib for the first few hours a night for about a week. Then she started to wake up when you put her in it so she's back in the big bed for the
whole night. Oh well.

-I was out watering 2 weeks ago and Zoë decided that she wanted to sit in the flowerbed I'd just watered. She was mud from butt to knees but she looked cute so I
took her picture.

-I've been finding life challenging lately. This is probably why I haven't wanted to write. (Can I call this writing? What do you think?)

-I've found a new kind of chocolate drumstick ice cream novelty that is very yummy!
posted by Amanda Snyder at 8:33 PM